I used to draw a lot. Drawing, writing and sewing – Those were the 3 things that were definitively me.
Gradually, though, I lost the time I needed to do those things. As I transitioned into being an adult, more and more of my time was eaten up by work, then college, then work again. Over time, the monotony killed my inspiration and I just didn’t do any of it any more.
It’s been a fight to get back into writing, one I don’t always win at. I picked sewing back up easily enough, but the one thing that used to be so me that hasn’t come back so well is art.
It’s so hard to try to make your way as an artist. My husband draws every night, but I don’t have the luxury of time. No one ever warned me how hard it is to be a full-time stay-at-home mother, and by the end of the day, I’m so exhausted that I go to bed at 9 when the baby finally goes to sleep.I don’t really have the time to practice, I definitely don’t have the time to develop my own visual style.
Still, I try. Sometimes I doodle a little while the baby naps in my arms. It means 10 or 15 minutes to work at a time, but since I need both hands to type and only one to draw, I might as well. Maybe someday, 15 minutes at a time, I’ll work up enough skill to really do something remarkable. For now, though, I’ll just stick to what’s easy – Character portraits for the many stories I have yet to write.
|Lumia – Character concept art by Beth Alvarez|